When I stopped blogging a year ago, it was in the run-up to an election I was becoming increasingly convinced my side was going to win. And it scared the bejesus out of me; four years before that, I had started the blog as a vehicle for my frustration over the upcoming election, and we lost that one. (We lost that one, and I don't know if it was the election, or the move that came at the tail end of election season, or the fact that I quit my job [where I'd been working with Sam], or the fact that I was starting an academic certificate program that I felt pretty damn bad about, or what, but I ended up being seriously depressed that winter. And it was a really bad time in our lives, and I didn't want a repeat of that, if my side lost.) So anyway, I was scared that we'd lose, or maybe even I was scared that we'd win, and I wasn't sure how to blog about that.
I stopped blogging because I didn't know what to say anymore about politics, and I increasingly had nothing at all to say about my life, because I was having a hard time concentrating on anything except the drama unfolding at a national level. And I had NOTHING to say about that drama, because what was there to say? I wanted Obama to win desperately. I was nervous and giddy when it seemed like he was pulling away with the election, and then terrified that my mounting excitement would jinx the whole thing.
I never said it was a smart reaction, ok?
So I stopped, and I intended to only stop until after the election. But then the stoppage turned into a few months, and then more months, and then Sam and I were buying a condo, and I couldn't blog about that, and then Sam and I were talking about getting married, and I couldn't blog about that, and then I was applying to grad school, getting in, spending ten days in prison-like Champaign, and I couldn't blog about that.
It's not that I didn't want to, per se. I just forgot how. I mean, I just forgot how it felt to blog about the stuff happening to you, even the big stuff. I thought about blogging all the time. Typepad is my freaking homepage, for goodness' sake. I just couldn't make my fingers type.
So here it is: Sam and I bought a condo. We moved in, and we love it. We're getting married next June on our eighth anniversary. It flowed out of the condo purchase, honestly. I've started grad school; I'm getting my MLIS (slowly, slowly) from the University of Illinois--Urbana Champaign through their LEEP program.
My facebook description for months now has been: Things are happening. That's right. Things. Are. Happening.
That list encompasses the "things", and I'm going to (slowly) start talking about them here.
I'm glad to see you're back! :)
Congratulations on all of the changes -- it sounds like a lot of positive things are happening for you.
Posted by: comebacknikki | September 25, 2009 at 09:26 PM