Plans

No, I don't have any.  Other than to continue to apply for jobs; I applied for one this morning. 

The plans I'm referring to are actually a CD, called Plans.  I'm sure you all know that it's by Death Cab for Cutie and that it's fantastic.  It is, it's faaaantastic.

If you like to be fucking sad for hours after listening to it.  I've talked before about how saaaaad Death Cab makes me, but motherfucker.  I always forget.  See, for the past few months, I've been doing audiobook/radio listening only.  Because when I have an audiobook in my car's CD player, I don't like to pop it out and lose my place.  So whenever S is in the car with me, I've been doing the radio.  I'm currently in between audiobooks, though, so I decided to put in a CD.  Yesterday, I listened to a good mix of classic rock songs, but not today.  Noooo, I had to torture myself with Death Cab.

I like the music, you understand.  But it makes me suddenly realize how fragile the world is, and how sad I am right at this very moment (even if I wasn't sad before; I wasn't today before I got in the car).  Death Cab makes life seem so horribly wonderful.  Does that make sense?   For instance, who can remain happy when this line keeps repeating: "Sorrow drips into your heart through a pinhole just like a faucet that leaks and there is comfort in the sound."

And that's the least of it.  "If the silence takes you then I hope it takes me too" and "Love of mine someday you'll die but I'll be close behind.  I'll follow you into the dark."  And frankly, every song sounds melancholy even if it isn't.  But most songs deal with loss of some kind--him not loving some girl (that theme shows up AGAIN and AGAIN)--and how sad everyone is.  It makes me crazy.  I think I have to go back to audiobooks, before I drive myself insane with sadness.  (And I'm not even really sad!)

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[M]

I received a Diana Krall album as a gift - I do like jazz - but it has the same effect on me. Way too depressing. I don't listen to it anymore. M