Blogger ate one of my posts earlier. Which isn't a problem, because it was crap. But that was at around two this afternoon, and now is the first time I've been able to compose all day. Blogger's been acting wonky and I hate it. I'm considering that maybe it's time to pay for a Typepad account, but that also scares the shit out of me. I honestly have no idea how to transfer this blog over there, and now that I've really souped up my template, I'm not sure I want to. Something for me to consider in the next few months, I guess.
In other blogger news, I'm abandoning my book blog. It'll stay up for a while, during the time in which I attempt to transfer some of the information off of it and onto a spreadsheet. I need to keep track of the boks I'm reading, but the blog is too much work. And not very entertaining, either. But I've decided that I really do like knowing what I'm reading, and when. It's a handy reference tool. It also will keep me from purchasing the same book twice, something that I have done (and yes, I am a nerd) in my life. More than once. Sometimes you just forget. Anyway, it'll be a good bit of work to do all that transferring, so I'm going to take it slow and not stress out about it. If that's possible.
You know, I'm a bit of a stress monster; I think all my headaches at the end of February and beginning of March were due to stress. I'm positive that the reason I'm so stressed is the double-whammy of school and cleaning my own apartment. If I didn't have serious doubts about the quality of the schooling, I might not be too stressed about it. But I think I'm so stressed because I sincerely hate (all apologies, COD) the program. I can't figure out what else it could be. But you know, I'm learning things, so it's not all bad. And I do feel somewhat excited to finish the schooling and actually get into a library. I just hope that it works out. (I can't imagine that I would hate grad school this much. I loved college.) I haven't had a headache, though, since the end of last quarter. I need to figure out a way to let go of the stress, and just let myself hate the program while completing it. I need to stop being so angry about hating it. That's what I need.
And you may ask yourself--if she hates the program, will she hate the library? I don't think so. I've given this a lot of thought myself, but most of what I hate about the program has literally zero to do with WHAT I'm studying. It's all about how the teaching is being done and how the learning is being done by those around me. I do know that with one online course, I'll be somewhat removed from the other learners, which is possibly the greatest thing ever if you're me; one of the other classes I'm taking is the RA one, which doesn't scare me at all. I have every confidence that the class will be enjoyable enough on its own that however the other learners behave, I'll be okay. And I think that if I am in a good library for my internship, I'll discover how much it is right for me (right now) and I think that I'll be a great asset to whatever library I'm at. That's not an issue for me.
All that remains is to make it through this quarter, and I feel like I might just be okay. Sigh.
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