No, not really. I don't love the bomb. But I do so love procrastination. The old-school college Manogirl is back. That's right, I've discovered that the amount of work that I actually have to do to get an 'A' is way less than I thought. Hence, leaving projects to the last minute, or, and this is an absolute aberrance, being as I am to my very soul a reader, only doing a skeletal job of reading the chapters, just so that I can answer the questions I need to answer. God, sometimes I hate myself. I'm such a slacker. It's just hard to get motivated by a class that isn't teaching me things that will be useful at all. And the homework that I'm supposed to do today is from that class, at least according to the ambitious and not-to-be-followed schedule I've set for myself.
Oh, who am I kidding? I'm following the damn schedule. I've already done one of the two things on the schedule, and as a bonus, threw in another item (calling the eye doctor). But really, I don't want to do the homework. Which is why I'm sitting on the couch in my workout clothes doing this.
You know, I always thought that it wasn't possible for teachers to be self-indulgent, but I've now learned that it's absolutely untrue. I have the most self-indulgent professor in the world. The class, the absolutely un-useful one, does have certain uses, I suppose. If you weren't going to be a librarian, but a businesswoman, maybe. Keeping this class in the curriculum is just a way for this teacher (oh god, I'm now going to hell and failing) to keep her pet concepts as part of the LTA program. The emphasis on technology isn't bad, in and of itself. It's the technology that is emphasized that is the problem. I need to learn how to troubleshoot machines we're not even learning about--printers and computers, copiers, microfiche and microfilm machines and god, barcode scanners. Things like that. I bet that those items are among the most heavily used at your local library. Knowing how to use a document camera is nice, but will it help me? It's just so much goddamn work for an absolute zero of a class.
You know what I wish? (And this came upon me like a revelation, right now.) I wish there was an LTA Honors program, so that those of us who can move faster, and like to move faster, could. I mean, the shock and awe I get for doing this program in a year (and I am by no means the only one) is astonishing. I'm not used to being the only one ready to push harder and further. I guess I went to a college where the lowest level of work was harder and faster than this; I don't remember being utterly bored except in maybe a very few classes. I also remember being pushed really hard by the other students in the classes, and pushing right back. Maybe it was my program; maybe it was the school (which, although ass backwards in too many ways, did have some fantastic classes and instructors. I loved most of my profs, at least the ones in my major; and I formed some incredible friendships with a few instructors, culminated in me TA-ing a class). All I'm saying is that I'm not really used to people asking for things to slow down; I'm not used to moving slowly through topics and assignments.
I should be in grad school. {{{sigh}}}
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