It's so weird to be back here

When I stopped blogging a year ago, it was in the run-up to an election I was becoming increasingly convinced my side was going to win.  And it scared the bejesus out of me; four years before that, I had started the blog as a vehicle for my frustration over the upcoming election, and we lost that one.  (We lost that one, and I don't know if it was the election, or the move that came at the tail end of election season, or the fact that I quit my job [where I'd been working with Sam], or the fact that I was starting an academic certificate program that I felt pretty damn bad about, or what, but I ended up being seriously depressed that winter.  And it was a really bad time in our lives, and I didn't want a repeat of that, if my side lost.)  So anyway, I was scared that we'd lose, or maybe even I was scared that we'd win, and I wasn't sure how to blog about that.

I stopped blogging because I didn't know what to say anymore about politics, and I increasingly had nothing at all to say about my life, because I was having a hard time concentrating on anything except the drama unfolding at a national level.  And I had NOTHING to say about that drama, because what was there to say?  I wanted Obama to win desperately.  I was nervous and giddy when it seemed like he was pulling away with the election, and then terrified that my mounting excitement would jinx the whole thing.

I never said it was a smart reaction, ok? 

So I stopped, and I intended to only stop until after the election.  But then the stoppage turned into a few months, and then more months, and then Sam and I were buying a condo, and I couldn't blog about that, and then Sam and I were talking about getting married, and I couldn't blog about that, and then I was applying to grad school, getting in, spending ten days in prison-like Champaign, and I couldn't blog about that.

It's not that I didn't want to, per se.  I just forgot how.  I mean, I just forgot how it felt to blog about the stuff happening to you, even the big stuff.  I thought about blogging all the time.  Typepad is my freaking homepage, for goodness' sake.  I just couldn't make my fingers type.

So here it is: Sam and I bought a condo.  We moved in, and we love it.  We're getting married next June on our eighth anniversary.  It flowed out of the condo purchase, honestly.  I've started grad school; I'm getting my MLIS (slowly, slowly) from the University of Illinois--Urbana Champaign through their LEEP program. 

My facebook description for months now has been: Things are happening.  That's right.  Things. Are. Happening. 

That list encompasses the "things", and I'm going to (slowly) start talking about them here. 

Comments

[comebacknikki]

I'm glad to see you're back! :)

Congratulations on all of the changes -- it sounds like a lot of positive things are happening for you.